I have no idea about this…

I’m an introvert. I’m an extreme INFP, which has intensified over the past two years.

I’m an Environmental Scientist that hasn’t graduated yet.

I’m harshly opinionated, yet not outspoken. If I am it’s only to myself. I don’t talk a lot or to many people, I’m shy unless I know you well. I have a chaotic mind, which I don’t know what to do with, I’m currently tired, diagnosed major depressive, bored, restless but mostly I think the problem is I am just under stimulated and this is what introduced me to writing a blog.

 

I have always wanted to find a way to reach out to people in a way that I couldn’t on Facebook, probably because of the fact that when I upload a selfie or pretentious bikini shot I can get over 100 ‘likes’(thanks)… but when I post something educational, to create discussion and awareness on the current environmental or humanity situations of the world that break my heart, I can count the audience on my hand, most the time 5 people ‘like’ my thoughts (thanks again, I know who you are).

 

The person I have become is definitely not the girl I was 4 years ago. I know I can, or have, confused or even disappointed a lot of people’s expectation of who they meet or who I grew into. I am sorry to the friends or family that has applied to, but luckily for me, I’m finally learning to like the person I am and I won’t apologise for that.  All the good, bad and fucking ugly.

 

Empathy is something I hope I have always had and integrity is a moral that has grown a lot on me, and no matter what choices I make, I like to think I do it with both those morals.

Because in a world of happy snaps, snide comments heard and false hope, I can’t seem to find a lot of it these days.

 

Just as the majority, I’m susceptible to the silly moments of comparing my life to others, watching Facebook for my constant news feed (which I ashamedly started to rely on that 7news.com updates and our weather). I was a believer of everyone and their happy #zen, #summerbody, #perfectday, #love selfies. I have tried, desperately, every diet trick lately (currently on Isagenix) to regain a body I once had, but never appreciated. I studied at University trying two different degrees, I tried having a ‘loving’ relationship. But what I’m really most proud of growing up the past few years has shown some light on my little life, I now have the confidence to trust my own opinion and call bullshit to the whole lot of it.

 

This will be based on my own opinion, life experience, travel, education and hopefully a new way I can create awareness, on global issues that are affecting us now and that I feel passionately about. They could be written while I’m happy, sad or angry because that’s when my brain will be working overtime, but it will be me.

I never would have imagined I would start a blog, but as they say, When in Rome, or I should now say, When on the Internet.

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5 thoughts on “I have no idea about this…

  1. Should be very interesting to occasionally peek through the window at the wonderings of such a beautiful, thoughtful, passionate, young woman as she delves deeper into the wisdom of self. Enjoy your journey 🌻😊

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  2. Your an amazing soul Dakota. Peeling back all the layers that arent you to find the true you is never an easy unfolding. Stay passionate about all the things you love and the truth you wish to tell about them.

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